Well, here i go again...typing about all my stupid ramblings &what not. life has been really boring. but at least i've been going places...hah-hah...school.


and i feel as if i'm missing something in my life right now. [ okay, here comes the stupid part of my post ] i know what it is, but i just can't have it. i know many people have felt the same way i'm feeling at this moment. I even asked Irving for advice, and he said "just talk to him, and become friends. For a guy, it's much more easier if a girl approches first." well, he didn't say it EXACTLY like that, but that's what he meant. i asked Christian for advice, and he said "buy him candy&chocolates. guys love that. jk. =D " hahah. well, anyway. i bet all of you people are thinking it's one of those kinds of posts where the-girl-likes-the-guy-but-he-doesn't-like-her-back kinda thing &well, it is! i feel so sorry for myself sometimes, it seems like this is the only thing i can type on here. because it's the only thing that i seem to be thinking of now-a-days.i can't get it out of my head, but the weird thing is, i know..for a fact, that nothing that i am thinking of would come true. [ only to what this post is about, anyway. ] but then, even though i know it won't ever work out, why do i still think of it? is there some kind of..un-doubtfulness of what i'm doubting...? if that even made sense..*checks* yeah, it did. you guys are probably thinking..NOW..that i'm some kind of whiny-little-desperate-girl, but i don't know...that's what i'm thinking of, err..everything except the "whiny-little-desperate-girl". freakin' unreality thoughts of mine. damn it all. >.<


so, yeah. i think i'm guna be kicked off the computer right now. so good-bye. i'll post more about this stuff later. hah-hah. it's not like you people want to know about how i feel anyway. [ damn the negativity. =P ]