ack its audrey:

..yeah, i know how you feel janice..not having a dad who is there everyday when i come home from school, or not having him around when you accomplish something. i envy those people with dads....i have a feeling most of the people reading this will be like... what the hell is she talking about?!? ...well, here it goes..

when i was in kindergarden, my mom and my dad divorced. and i ended living with my mom. and my dad moved out. he married later on though. and so did my mom. but anyway...every weekened for the next three years i'd visit my dad at his house. i'd have soo much fun i really really did love my dad, but then one friday when i was going to get ready to go to his house, my mom tells me that he's not there anymore. so i just said 'oh, then can i go tomorrow?' but then she told me that he's not even in america anymore. and i'm wondering what happened?? like, is it MY fault he moved. or is it just because he never loved me? so i told my mom 'oh, then...i'll just wait for him..till he comes back then.' and i had a feeling my mom knew he wasn't guna come back till a while. and even to this day, i never got a letter from him..not for valentines day..christmas...my birthday..or ANY DAY. i never called him. cuz i dont know his number..and i cant mail him a letter..cuz i dont know his address. i know he's around there..in the phillippines, but how come he never wrote or called me? its like he doesnt care about me. or anything. i know my dad is REALLY nice, but i just dont think he cares about me anymore. the way he used to care about me when i visited him. it's been about 6 years so far,almost half of my life...and i havent heard/seen him, but i dont give up that easily on him..i'm still waiting for when i hear/see him again. and sometimes at night, i cry myself to sleep *slaps head* cuz i miss my dad so much. i know i'm weird. but im not over exaggerating what i'm saying. it's the truth. those really happen. maybe i'll hear from him in a year or two. but i've also heard that he's guna come back to see me when im in college..or finished with it. soo until then, i'll wait..but i dunno..it's not like i can believe anything about my dad anymore...

yeah okay..i'm over with that...i'm done..enough said..