I'm so glad someone understands! Someone so close to me has actually gone through the same feelings as i have in the nights that i think about how hes doing without me. See, my mom is a strong woman. She can do ANYTHING by herself, i think she is one of the strongest people in the world, she's my hero. This is what happened to us.

When i was little my dad had a job as a sailor or a navy seal [ my mom told me he was 2nd mate but i dunno what that is ] so my dad never really got to see me to be born or see me for the first 3 or 4 years of my life. The first time i saw him, my mom told me i was scared of him.. seeing a stranger for the first time and all, my dad was a stranger to me. My dad got layed off his job as a sailor/navy seal and we had no money. My dad didn't know what to do, so my mom was the strong point again, just like she always has been. Mom decided she had to get a job in America, since it was the only way to get money for a family fast, so she took me with her. I got on the plane and I just remember my dad crying. That was the first time i'd ever seen a man cry. I was wondering why he was crying, because i knew that we would come back, and he would come with us. But he didn't. My mom told me that hes gonna come for us.. in 10 years she says, but it has been more that ten years and i dont know when i will see him come here. I remember when he'd walk me to school, everyday. It was fun while it lasted. Yeah my mom has his number, but i am reluctant to call him since everytime i talk to him i break up in tears. I don't want to cry anymore.